My Prayer for Mankind

This is my prayer for all of us, for all of mankind;
‘Dear God, please accept my prayer for mankind.
This world and its citizens are ever-changing, faith dripping away like monsoon rain from a newly sprung leaf.
My Lord, increase our faith in you….
Increase and deepen our faith, empowering mankind to construct bridges against the gulfs of bewilderment and doubt….
Oh Supreme Soul, bless and grant us with resolute faith to look beyond the challenges of the moment to the miracles of the future, to belief in ourselves, to sustain hope in mankind….
Bless us with faith follow a righteous path, destitute of the fear of adversity to follow….
Grant us the ability to seek faith at all costs in turn starving our doubts forever.’


Challenges resemble trees viewed through a travelling train . . .
As you approach them they increase in size,
Once they pass you by, they begin to decrease in size!
So, do not be afraid of challenges, some make you, some break you but they all make you stronger. Never be afraid of them because the lessons they teach you, never die!

I Knew A Girl Once

I knew a girl once
She was a little different
Yet her dreams, wishes were just as others,it wasn’t much
In the beginning, it was just a listening ear to know her
Beyond the physically differences, inside she’s just the same,
A friend to know her, to speak with her, to brush her hair,
To paint her nails, to play dress up with, to go out with…
Shame, this never really materialized

I knew a girl once
She really was like no other
Young in appearance, an Angel with big eyes
With child like features, innocent
Unaware of the ways of the world, trapped in a web of
Pain and confusion, hurt, humiliation and broken dreams
Who knew school could be this cruel, who knew innocence could be so evil
It was with every drop of tear, with every grazed knee and elbow that her
Own naively conceived dreams washed away her own innocence a shambles
She was alone emotionally, physically distorted vision of herself now, ugly she called herself
The ordeal called school finally ended

I knew a girl once
College girl she was scared from the ordeal of school
She has a new name: weird
Trying to fit in, trying to be accepted
She never revealed her disability
Instead it revealed her, the falls, the inability to run or walk normally
Humiliation now the norm, the sneering, sniggering, the mockery, the laughs, the loneliness.
A soul destroyed, hollow, empty
Hope shattered
A phone call, an illusion stepped towards her
The wrong choice, the first desperate mistake.

I knew a girl once
Her friend different,
Inappropriate, child like yet accepting
Yet her feelings inadequacy seeping through
His words to console her broken spirit
If you think these flowers are beautiful then so are you
These words dispelled, her spirit beyond repair
The end was inevitable

I knew a girl once
A facade, one brave face among many
Internally shattered, confused, hurt, lonesome and oh so naive
Her desperation to fit in, to be equal, to be accepted.
Lured in by evil only to be used, abused, threatened and called upon for currency.
There came a dark day, a day of great loss, great tragedy.
Her spirit once again broken, pain physical and emotional.
All gone in less than 10 minutes.

I knew a girl once
Stronger, wiser, confident, humble and grounded
A wounded soldier, a lone ranger.
Inquisitive, curious and willing to learn.
Her spirit scared, but unbroken topped with a faith and strength of a liberated woman
Freedom to run, free to explore, free to be herself.
With destiny in her reach, an unstoppable passion emerged
A passion to live, a passion to give
She walks ahead, towards the horizon, looking back only with a smile.

I knew a girl once
No longer a girl, but a courageous woman
Whose journey had just began……

Best Wishes,
Maahi PM

My Trusted Fountain Pen

It’s summer and I’m in the middle of a wedding. I’m escaping from them all though; they all appear like zombies to me, out to consume all my time. I’ve just visited my beautician and I feel refreshed and ready for action this entire weekend. I’ve purposely escaped and taken a couple of hours out of my busy day to gather my thoughts and write a few line. The urge is irresistible now.

I’m seated on a wooden bench, with my headphones in to drown out the surrounding noise. The music calms my mind, it slows my thoughts, softens my anger. It’s warm, and I feel the heat of the sun beaming down on my back and neck I am leaning against the arm-rest of the bench with my legs, stretched out before me. Just behind the bench is a bed of flowers all bunched together in front of a row of bushes with sprigs of yellow flower which dance obediently with the wind. There are overgrown trees around me which sway with in the warm breeze and I look out ahead of me on to a sea of luscious green grass. A rare sight for a British summer. This is my paradise. It’s clean, it’s green and it’s non-intrusive. I am alone but at peace from the fast paced world in which I reside. Somewhere within the vicinity of the park, a group of young children are playing and chattering and I sense freedom their tone. In my possession I have my phone, my iPod, my journal and in my hand, my favourite fountain pen which I write with regularly.

An elder couple walk past me. They notice me, smile and nod. I take off my sun glasses and headphones and say hello. The gentleman and his wife say hello and walked over to me. The gentleman commented on the warm, bright weather expressing his delight on how wonderful it is to finally have what can be deemed a decent summers day. ‘I agree, it’s beautiful to finally get away from the rain for a while.’ The gentleman’s wife smiled too, ‘Are you writing a diary my dear?’ I was astonished at her observation that I was writing a diary and before I had a chance to reply, the gentleman exclaims, “It’s wonderful and encouraging to see you writing and with a proper pen too! We were under the impression that the younger generation were more technologically orientated now and the era of writing had died but its impressive and reassuring to see it still alive!” At this point I stood to level with the gentleman, he deserved this respect. “Yes ma’am to answer your question, I am writing my diary. I have done so for many years now. Sir, in response to your comment, I’m from the era when writing with a proper pen was a skill you were taught in the final two years of junior school. I do recall the first occasion when I was presented with a fountain pen. It was an exciting occasion for me, I couldn’t have been more that 9-10 years old and ever since that moment I have enjoyed writing. The act of writing itself was a norm; we didn’t have computers like most of the younger generation now.” I could sense a feeling of pride from the couple as the conversation continued. We discussed the many different forms of writing and the significance it had in our lives today. As our conversation continued, we deliberated on the differences between traditional writing and typing on a computer and the significance of both forms. Our conversation lasted the better part of half an hour.

I am not accustomed to strangers expressing quite so much interest and astonishment at writing, nevertheless, I have on occasions received looks of admiration, or a supporting smile or nod and even looks of bewilderment. Many a time I have looked up to find questioning looks from the person opposite me on the underground or across the coffee shops, I have even had individuals ask me what I’m writing. For my age, I look very young and the activity which I carry out in public is considered unconventional and is almost associated with the middle-aged people as more and more members of the younger generation utilise the iPad, smart-phones and other technological gadgets to communicate and ‘write’. But the truth be told, I have written with a fountain pen since I was nine years old – the last two years of my junior school. The teachers insisted on the use of pens and it made us feel more grown up more responsible. I’m still growing.

I draw a lot of pleasure from writing with my fountain pens. Yes, I have a few, 5 to be exact all of Parker make. It’s comforting to feel how easily my fountain pens glide and roll over the paper with such ease leaving behind lustrous tracings of blue or black, slowly drying and transforming into graceful deep matt colours, emphasising each and every word on the page. The eldest of my pens is from my school years gifted to me by my parents on my 10th birthday. Its black with a plastic casing and stainless steel grip. The pen’s appearance is fairly decent though it’s quite obvious its a used pen. The nip is still in pristine condition, writing as smoothly as it did the first time I used it, light weight and a perfect fit for my hand. This particular pen has been witness to many verses, paragraphs and secrets over the years, holding each one close to its nip like a precious crown jewel from hungry, greedy eyes. An old companion, an old friend, defender of thoughts old and new. It’s comforting to know that as I write each day in my journal, my trusted fountain pen naturally adapts to my hand, travelling over the page without the need for any form of force require compared to a roller ball or biro pen. I like how the ink conquers the milky cream pages marking out their boldness.

Do not be fooled, I can and very regularly do type on my computers. I have a loving relationship with my desktop pc and laptop whereby they connect me to my readers and followers, allowing me to blog and keep in touch with friends and family. But there is something amiss. The manner in which I express myself differs considerably to that on paper. I often find that I write-up notes, or jot down my thoughts before beginning any form of writing on the computer. The hand written notes must come first, which allows my thoughts to flows with ease. Any form of writing I do – be it a consultation report, data analysis, book reviews, briefings, my journal or my blog – I prefer to hand-write at least a few short paragraphs to begin with, which I then copy and edit on my pc. In fact, my journal is hand written all the time in full. I find that the computer restricts me and separates me from my true thoughts and emotions. Worse still, I feel pressured by the computer to actually write something whereas noting down a mere sentence or two in my journal is satisfying. I have often found myself sitting staring at my screen contemplating how to join all the scattered words and thoughts constantly being distracted by the murmur of the pc and the various websites I have open. But I don’t want to knock it too much. It is fair to say now that I am adapting to the idea of using the pc more often to ‘write’ otherwise I wouldn’t have this blog and yes, it is likely remain my second choice for writing after all, a fountain pen is a fountain.

The moment I pick up my fountain pen, I am transformed into a different person; my thoughts, emotions, words stir together in an almost magical swirl of paragraphs, verses and words slide down from the nib in the form of ink onto the creamy paper. These are my real words, the words of my heart and the words of my curious mind. They reflect my identity as an individual as well as my love, my anger, my growth, my strength and my weakness. What makes my writing even more personal is the mood I’m in when I write it. It is the handwriting which clearly defends my feelings at the time of writing; the happier I am, the cleaner, better thought out my words and my writing.

You see, writing provides me with a genuine sense of achievement, connection and continuity. Writing brings me serenity, peace of mind, clarity and allows me to remain grounded in my thoughts, feelings and understanding of my growth as a human being. Writing heals me.

Best wishes,
Maahi PM

Human beings, like plants…

Human beings, like plants, trees and flowers, grow, flourish and develop fruitfully in the soil of acceptance, the sun of support alongside the water of encouragement not in the atmosphere of rejection, discrimination, prejudice, ignorance and segregation.


Human beings, like plants, trees and flowers, grow, flourish and develop fruitfully in the soil of acceptance, the sun of support alongside the water of encouragement not in the atmosphere of rejection, discrimination, prejudice, ignorance and segregation.