You’re not in love with her 

If yelling at her in an argument doesn’t make your throat burn like you just downed six shots, you’re not in love with her.

If her eyes can’t make you stop in your tracks and think about what you are about to say next, you’re not in love with her.

If her laugh doesn’t make you tense up your knuckles thinking about never hearing it again, you’re not in love with her.

If it only hurts her when she cries, you’re not in love with her.

If her voice cant calm your worst anxiety attacks and make you want to listen to anything she has to say, you’re not in love with her.

If her smile doesn’t make your chest quake and your lungs shrink but feel refreshed all in one motion, you’re not in love with her. 

If her taking her clothes off is when you pay the most attention to her, you’re not in love with her at all. 

Best wishes,

Maahi PM


Daily Prompt: Infinite

Via Daily Prompt: Infinite

We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope.
We must remember that beyond the horizon of the so called impossible is infinite possibility.

Best Wishes,

Maahi PM

A Day…..

A day without her – Fun

A week without her – Tiring

A month without her – Sad

A year without her – Lonely

A life without her – Curse


Best Wishes,

Maahi PM


Daily Prompt: Gone

Via Daily Prompt: Gone

A few short stories in relation to today’s daily prompt. Somewhere hidden within the text is a sense of something being gone or lost. I find that the word gone itself is very empty with little to offer in terms of emotion.

The Wi-Fi was fine and good 
It was I who had no connections left

“You really mean the world to be my darling!”
This was the birthday text that was sent.
Blue ticks. It’s been read. No reply.
The heart sank. I understood, someone else has taken the place. 

Somewhere between yesterday’s shadow and 
Somewhere between tomorrow’s insecurities 
We end up ruining today’s happiness.

Sooner or later, 
We all come to realise that being a 
Child was the best thing ever.

“Can you live without him?” her friend asked.
“No, but I would rather let him fly than break his wings.”

They both cried endlessly.
One had to forget and move on, 
The other regretted letting go. 

Somewhere between parents expectations and society’s interference, dreams died. 

Take me back in time when people and emotions were real.
Take me to my childhood….

Somewhere between “I want to grow up” and 
“I want to be a child again”, Life happened.


Best Wishes,

Maahi PM

Regrets, I’ve had a few

What’s your biggest regret? How would your life have been different if you’d made another decision?

Regrets. We all have them and they play an aspect in shaping our lives. I’m no different. I have some and they often put me in situations that I could avoid. One of my biggest regrets is that I am emotional and, without sounding too self-proclaiming, I’m too nice. There have been times where I have not stood up for myself as much as I should have which has resulted in me often being used and abused. It left me feeling empty and worthless for a while but I still continued. If I had stood firmly on my own two feet and not worry about acceptance and fitting in I think my younger life would most definitely have been happier and easier.

Even now, II do feel that I am a bit of a push over and regret that but there is much more of a better understanding of it, I can almost justify it to myself in a more logical manner, in a more acceptable manner. So I am just covering up and justifying certain behaviours and continuing the same behaviour? Well, no. I know my limits now, I have set my boundaries to protect myself and I myself recognise my limits. When I have not stood up for myself I have often lost out on things I actually deserve and at a later date this has come back to bite me. There would most definitely have been different friends, a different job, a different marriage and a more desirable outcome. It’s all been in aid of being accepted and wanted, which are basic and natural needs of humans. However, I’ve learnt the hard way that pushing something that is not worth pushing is not always a good idea.

My biggest regret is not going for and waiting for what I deserve and in the end it has made me unhappy at times but the concept of being alone and unaccepted was too strong at the time that I was blinded by a desperation. But I’ve grown up now, and quickly too. I’ve learnt what I deserve and I’m now going after it, even if it means leaving a few people whom I do love behind.

Best Wishes,
Maahi PM


My Bucket List

I never imagined that I would make a bucket list of the things that I want to do over the span of my life. I was never sure what I would add or what I really wanted to do even. Most people make a bucket list of things they wish to do for themselves over their lifetime but mine contains many things I wish to do with and for others. It’s what makes me most happiest to know I’ve done things for others which makes a real difference for them now and in the future. Lets see, I do hope I have the opportunity to do these things. This is pretty long and some items on the list have been achieved already which I have highlighted.

  • Swim with dolphins – preferably in Florida.
  • Hold a snake
  • Skydive and raise money for a charity
  • Get a tattoo of Lord Shiva
  • Go on a Police ride along
  • Hold and feed a tiger cub – a childhood dream for me. I love and I mean absolutely love tiger cubs and this is one wish that I will complete at some point during my life.
  • Swim with turtles – I love turtles I think they are the most magnificent creatures in the water and swimming with them would be fabulous.
  • Milk a cow – my mum did this a great deal when she was younger and I remember her telling me how much fun it can be. This is one experience that I really do want to have under my belt.
  • Hold a tarantula – considering I’m absolutely petrified of spiders, this one will take real guts and courage!
  • Feed a koala bear
  • Bath an elephant
  • Stand under a waterfall
  • Kiss my husband in the rain
  • Climb to the top of a tree
  • Watch the sunrise & sunset in one day with my family
  • Learn to ride a horse
  • Horseback ride on the beach – ok I’ve done this one already back in 2004 when I went to India. It was a nice experience, so good that I want to do it again at a different location!
  • Ride in a horse & carriage with my husband
  • Roll in a huge pile of leaves – I’m still a child at heart!!
  • Sleep in a stable on a haystack
  • Receive a fan letter after completing a good deed
  • Have a meaningful conversation with a stranger
  • Meet someone famous – done this already. I met Gurdas Maan many years ago back stage after his concert. A nice person although the interaction between us was very short. I even had a photograph taken, I just can’t seem to find it!
  • Surprise someone less fortunate than myself with something they really need, want and deserve
  • Plan a date night with my husband
  • Leave my mark in graffiti
  • Climb an indoor rock wall
  • Write a thank you letter to a company that treated me well
  • Learn archery
  • Fly kites with children in Africa
  • Ride a Camel
  • Drive a tractor
  • Send flowers to someone who’s lonesome
  • Drive a race car
  • Test drive a convertible sports car
  • Go in a submarine
  • Visit a butterfly sanctuary
  • Meditate more often – I do this already but must do it regularly
  • Write a love letter to my husband
  • Donate toys to an orphanage in a third world country
  • Make a significant change in someone’s life
  • Explore a rain forest
  • Go to an aquarium
  • Donate clothing to countries and people most in need
  • Entertain the elderly at a nursing home
  • Tour a lighthouse
  • Go on a safari
  • Stay in an underwater hotel
  • Be a mentor to a less fortunate child
  • Write a love note on the bathroom mirror for my husband
  • Cover the bed in rose petals
  • Organise a family portrait
  • Give blood
  • Plant trees
  • Build a garden with lots of colourful flowers
  • Build a house for a less fortunate family in India and Africa
  • Be an organ donor – done this one! It took a lot of guts because I really wasn’t sure what it involved and what was required of me but I’m glad I’ve done it.
  • Be present at a birth
  • Donate grains of rice to a third world country
  • Serve food at a soup kitchen during the winter months
  • Send a care package to a soldier
  • Donate books to a school in India
  • Live with a poor family in India and Africa for a month
  • Spend the day helping at a children’s hospital
  • Help an endangered or injured animal
  • Do a charity walk and raise much-needed funds
  • Buy a meal for a homeless person
  • Work on a potter’s wheel
  • Write my autobiography
  • Get a degree – ok I have 2 already, working on the next…
  • Learn to play a musical instrument
  • Learn the alphabet in sign language – I can say I’ve managed to achieve this but do need to practise more often
  • Teach a class of autistic adults
  • Master a new language and these include Spanish, Italian, Marathi,
  • Have a professional facial treatment
  • Get a professional body massage
  • Have a professional photo shoot
  • Take a mud bath
  • Create a passive income
  • Be a leader in my professional field
  • Be debt free
  • Sleep on satin sheets May 2013, done this and can say it was an interesting experience. May be it was not as enjoyable as I expected it to be but none the less I would do it again.
  • Eat alone at a fancy 5-star restaurant
  • Enter something in a food competition
  • Have drinks at an ice bar
  • Make ice cream
  • Create a traditional dish from a different culture
  • Go to the movies by myself
  • Attend a high school reunion
  • Have your picture published in a newspaper – done and dusted this one many times. It started when I was 10 years old and it still hasn’t stopped. It has all been for good causes and raising awareness about social issues related to disability.
  • Pose with a figure at a wax museum, quite possibly at Madam Tussaud’s but who I pose next to is yet to be decided.
  • Be on a TV show – done this when I was raising awareness about disability hate crime. I shared my story and experiences of disability hate crime.
  • Be on the cover of a magazine cover
  • Sit front row at a basketball game
  • Watch the space shuttle launch for which I’ll need to go to America of course
  • Attend a film premier
  • Have a night at the opera
  • Smoke a fine cigar
  • Complete a 1000-piece jigsaw puzzle with an elderly person in a care home
  • Send a message in a bottle
  • Build a sand castle with terminally ill children
  • Spontaneously walk into the airport and randomly buy a same-day ticket to wherever looks appealing
  • Leave any wealth or assets I have when I die to people who really deserve and need them
  • See the changing of the guards – I can’t believe that I haven’t seen or experienced this despite living in London all these years!! Must be done soon…..
  • Ride the London Eye – ok, embarrassed even more that everyone around me has ridden the London Eye except me. I’ll do it alone if I must!!!
  • Stand in a Red Phone Booth
  • Stroll Through Hyde Park – done this several times.
  • Learn to juggle
  • See the pyramids & the Sphynx (Egypt, not Vegas)
  • Walk the Great Wall
  • Tour India – my country, my heritage and my identity.
  • See the 7 wonders of the world
  • Visit Switzerland
  • Sleep in a castle with my husband
  • Take a Euro-trip just to visit castles & cathedrals
  • Ride in a Hot Air balloon with my husband – I’m a typical woman for this romantic trip!!
  • See the northern lights with my husband
  • Take a helicopter ride with my husband
So what’s on your bucket list? Have you made one yet?
Best Wishes,
Maahi PM